60 lbs in 4 months

So I went to the doctors today for my fluoroscopy and fill.  Ended up getting another 1.5ccs in my band which brings me to a total of 5.5ccs.  Didn't expect to lose anything this time around because I haven't been going to the gym and my food choices haven't been the greatest.  Not terrible but not great.  Portion control was still ok and really wasn't eating just to eat so I think that helped me. 

So after all my procedures we went back to his office and he weighed me.  I was pretty shocked to see that I actually did lose weight!  I am now at a grand total of 60lbs lost in 4 months.  That's pretty awesome.  I can't wait to see what happens when I really start kicking the gym thing into high gear.  Now I'm on liquids for the next 24 hours.  Lucky me lol. 


Anyway I have another appointment next month so I will update again then unless I find something else to blog about.


Til Then....

Depression

So since the end of June I have been in a serious battle with depression.  I had some very serious losses the last couple of months and they have definitely taken their toll on me.  Me eating habits have been shitty but at least I'm not gaining so I guess thats a sort of win for me.  I have also been having anxiety attacks like crazy.  I did see a doctor about this and they are doing what they can to help me.


I have been feeling very alone lately.  Kind of like my life isn't really my own.  I'm just living to exist.  I know I need to get out of this mind frame somehow I just need to figure out how I'm going to do it.  Anyway this is why I haven't bothered to post anything.  


I go for a fluoroscopy tomorrow and get another fill hopefully as long as nothing is wrong with my port.  I'll update again once I know what happens. 


Till Then....