Depression

So since the end of June I have been in a serious battle with depression.  I had some very serious losses the last couple of months and they have definitely taken their toll on me.  Me eating habits have been shitty but at least I'm not gaining so I guess thats a sort of win for me.  I have also been having anxiety attacks like crazy.  I did see a doctor about this and they are doing what they can to help me.


I have been feeling very alone lately.  Kind of like my life isn't really my own.  I'm just living to exist.  I know I need to get out of this mind frame somehow I just need to figure out how I'm going to do it.  Anyway this is why I haven't bothered to post anything.  


I go for a fluoroscopy tomorrow and get another fill hopefully as long as nothing is wrong with my port.  I'll update again once I know what happens. 


Till Then....